Wow! We Graduated Psychiatry Residency!

Dear Vanessa,

I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU!!! You did it with the whole village of family, friends and angels! Every seemly set back, every difficulty was all for your highest good! You have grown, learned and expanded so much! I am so excited for all you are going to continue doing and everyone you are going to help. I am blessing your private practice infinitely. I am blessing each patient, each session, each therapy and medication. Everyone that walks through your virtual doors will learn, grow, expand and be healed. I am so excited for you and your patients!! I believe in you! Remember this moment, that angels and love are always guiding the way. To always trust that with Love everything and anything can be happen!

PS. You also won the Dr. Raymond Handbury Award for Psychotherapy because you care and you love! May Ray and also Dr. Miller's guidance, wisdom and faith be will you always.

Thank you! We love you!

Congratulations!!! Yay!!! We did it!!!

What Does An Existential Crisis Feel Like

There is no footing.

No ground beneath me.

Without roots

Swaying lost.

Wandering and wondering.

Empty and numb.

No origins.

No history.

Solid doesn't feel physical.

Knocking on wind.

A hallucinating dream.

A figment.

Of imagination.

Bleak seascapes and landscapes.

An island and an echo chamber.

A vacuum.

A void

The eternal emptiness.

Confused and misunderstood.

Searching but there's no search party.

Questioning.

To sleep, to wake up and to pretend.

Like it's all normal and all okay.

How are you today?

Just fine.

Head down and distract this incessant knack.

Wish I could buy into this great catastrophe.

The senseless.

What is it all about?

To get educated, work and then die?

How could I die if I don't feel alive?

Where would I go?

My body and soul

Where does life end and death begin?

Do you find yourself asking:

What is the meaning of life?

Why was I born?

Why am I here?

Where did I come from?

What's my purpose?

What is reality?

What is the point?

That's awesome! Fun questions to ask! It can also feel so frustrating, tiring and feel like there's no end. But hey! It's cool that we are waking up! Ringing the alarm!

It's the journey not the destination? Everything is nothing? Nothing is everything? Nothing matters and everything matters! One thing is for sure: It's all temporary and impermanent. Therefore, enjoy every breath!

Mourning Winter: Climate Change Anxiety

Spring allergies came way too early

I'm still waiting for winter

Flurries, cotton balls, sleet, freezing rain

Snow plows

Snow days

I'm mourning today

Moving on

Skipping over

It never came

Not even delayed

Fall leaped into spring

Where's winter?

My seasonal depression was happier

but my climate existential anxiety is feeling crazed

And the time change came way too early

Tulips, daffodils, cherry blossoms

Green slopes waiting

Winter never came

We cannot even have a funeral for winter never arrived