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Transitioning from Residency to Private Practice: Poem
I forgot about you in the hustle and bustle
The coming out
Perplexed by the uncertainty
Just trying to find ground
Without projecting into the future
Always living 6 months from now
In a different time zone
Jet-lagged and insomniac-ed
How long will it take to fill?
It's just an exchange
For skillful healing
How will you know me without knowing me
Maybe it's not necessary
Recognition
Acknowledgement
I sit in that chair too
I'm one of you
You are one of me
Just a guide
Just walking together
Want to go for a stroll?
I'm letting you into my head
Hope you will find your own way out
It's so easy
It's so simple
To hide behind the fears
I'm trying to be that person
The person who is already in me
Unburdening
Looking for answers but there are only signs
Vermont, New Hampshire, Pennsylvania, California
Australia, New Zealand, Japan
The loop
The sacrifice and the relief
The light
Just 4 more months
Then study
Then some freedom
I don't want to just jump in
Too fast
Want to take my time
Need a clear break
To recover and recuperate
To freshen up
To come back to life
To home
Yet financial insecurity is bringing anxiety
Can I just let go and surrender?
Can I just make peace with not knowing?
Can I become comfortable with being uncomfortable?
Big risks reap big rewards
Going out on my own
Because I'm not meant to sign a soulless contract on the dotted line
There are no dots, just cold lines, a straight and narrow
I'm not to meant to be in sterile attire
Anxiety floating into Just Relax: